I haven't updated for two weeks. That's quite a long time. I am currently in the computer lab at School cause I just don't want to look at my notes anymore since that's what I've been doing for the past couple of days. I've been locked up in my room constantly studying and now that midterms are over I'm just going to rest for a while. Yes, I know I shouldn't waste my time but it's just one day right..

Anyways, I am currently very addicted to Criminal Minds and everything I watch on tv now is either on channel 31 or 32 or my tvb dramas which are Last One Standing, Moonlight Resonance, and Best Selling Secrets. Best Selling Secrets never ends but it's still good. I know Last One Standing and Moonlight Resonance were extremely good tvb dramas when it first came out but I never watched it when I first came out so now I'm watching it on tv.

Oh, and if it wasn't for my midterms today I would've gone to watch Gary Cao's concert yesterday. It sucks that I'm missing out on one of my favourite singers but if 林俊傑 or 张智成 came I would totally rush to go buy there concert tickets! Gary Cao's a Malaysian too man. I should've gone to represent my country. Ok, that's stupid but I'm pretty damn proud he's from Malaysia.

Malaysia's booming in the music industry and people like 光亮 and 曹格 have proved to the world that Chinese Malaysians are capable of the same things as other Chinese in other countries.

WOOT WOOT!

It's October and were getting closer and closer. EFF. It wasn't supposed to happen this way.

On a side note.. my LOL and =) moment of the weekend

Me - Maybe you should go talk to them since they like you more
BH - But, Joyin, YOU'RE GOOD @ BITCHING @ PPL
Me - OH WTF

LOL. True, true.

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I had no turkey for thanksgiving cause I'm a vegetarian.
Woot woot!
5 years plus.

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My xanga is childish?
Maybe you shouldn't read it then.
My xanga is just something I like to update on.
Keep a daily blog and look back as to what I did or who I once was tight with.
I've had this xanga for 6 and a half years and in April of 2010 I know I'll still be using it.
Man, things have changed. Change is constant. It has been accepted in society but as for me it's hard.
It's hard for me to accept change cause even after a year or two I'm still not use too it unless you're completely out of my life.
I'm so scared of making connections and really tight knit bonds with people cause I'm scared of change.
I know I know more people than the average 21 year old but that doesn't mean anything so I can say I talk too a bunch of people but as for friends, TRUE FRIENDS, I think I only have a few. It's probably less than FIVE.
I'm scared we will never be what we use too be and I can never have it back again but that's just change...
I take a fucking long and I mean LONG time to adjust.

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my whole life depends on tomorrow with just one phone call =(

Screw this shit.

I have this goal and I'm going to make it fucking happen before I turn 25.
If it doesn't happen then well I'm still going to continue at it but if it DOES happen before I turn 25 WOOT WOOT!
I'll be able to tell the whole wide world and just brag. MWHAHAHA.

Just wait and see.

No motivation..
No determination..

No matter how much I want it back, I know I can't.
Things just isn't like how it was before
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Even though it's extremely hard for me to face you guys I still have too.
It's really awkward but what else can I do?
I don't wanna start stuff.
I'm just holding it in cause I don't wanna start stuff.

I cut my hair AND weekend was awesome

I really can't keep my distance.